In case you haven't been counting, we have no more than 32 days to go before baby Beckett makes his debut. My c-section has been on the books for over a month {yeah, you knew I was a planner} and barring an early labor {not out of the question if you ask me!}, we will celebrate the 4th of July and his arrival 2 days later.
Being pregnant with B has not been super easy. My bestie says that when she was pregnant with her second she hardly remembered that she was pregnant at all! Not I, friend. I feel it all the time. As a matter of fact, according to my doctor, I felt pregnant a good two weeks before I really was {hence, why I think my due date might be wrong}. I am fully exhausted, still battling nausea occasionally, having regular bouts of hormonally induced anxiety, and in general, just sooooo not myself. I won't lie to you.
I am one of those rare gals that actually doesn't think pregnancy is all glamorous glowing gracefulness. Most days I feel frustrated at my physical restrictions and feel incredibly guilty about not participating around the house as much as I used to. I have had major bouts of fatigue this time around and entertaining P is sometimes all I can manage. But, don't get me wrong, the end result of pregnancy is what I'm ALL about and I really am grateful for a healthy 10 months {seriously, why did we ever start saying that pregnancy is only 9 mos?? I wish!} and a nice round belly.
Paley, of course, is up to her regular fabulousness... she is now counting all the way to 10! {see video below}. Oh, and she is practicing telling me "no" as often as she possibly can.
As for Becks arrival? Just when I think that I remember what it feels like to have a c-section, easy-peasy... {look at how calm I was before Paley...}
I suddenly remember some awful detail like catheters or blood and then I wonder what the hell I'm thinking! I'm using the following images to remind me that no matter how surreal and scary it is, this is what I get at the end...
And my heart stops racing and just fills with gratitude and longing and a bunch of other mushy stuff and then all of a sudden, I am fully prepared to brave the unknown to know him, finally.
That pretty much sums up pregnancy & other things around here. If you're feeling extra charitable, say a little prayer for us all and have a great week!
